Clair Chilvers has had poems published in numerous journals and anthologies. She was a cancer scientist and latterly worked for the UK National Health Service. She lives in Cheltenham, UK. All royalties from the sale of Out of the Darkness will go to the charity Mental Health Research UK that she co-founded in 2008. Clair’s second collection is Island, published in 2022 by Impspired.
Clair’s poem “Zoom Christmas” is published in wildfire words.
Clair is interviewed by Steve Cawte of Impspired, and talks about her latest book, how she came to write poetry, plays a couple of her favourite music tracks, and compares Zoom events with venue meetings.
Clair’s collection, Out of the Darkness, published by Frosted Fire, was launched in an online event by Cheltenham Poetry Festival on 14 May, 2021.
Memory, and poetry, are proven to be powerful tools for healing in Clair Chilvers’s delicate yet powerful collection. In these luminous and transportative poems the author demonstrates how looking back, and reading/writing verse can enable us to transcend our limitations, escape some of our sorrows. Pandemic themed poems are peppered throughout, showing what has been lost, yet equally what we now treasure more deeply due to its scarcity – time with friends, country walks, small pleasures. In a series of linked poems, deceptively simple yet multi layered, Chilvers reveals much about the human condition and its capacity for joy and sorrow. Anna Saunders
Sometimes playful, often heart-wrenching, always captivating, Clair Chilvers’s collection consistently delivers a stark honesty in its explorations of life, love and memory. From childhood reminiscences and half-remembered travels to surreal worlds where angels ‘do whatever angels do on Saturday night’, these narratives bend and flex in joyously unexpected directions which persistently surprise. Chilvers has the enviable skill of seemingly capturing a poem in mid-movement and opening the window on some secret scene which, the reader feels, continues with a life of its own after the final line has been read. Ben Ray
Whether evoking ‘the smell of oregano and hot tarmac’, the tastes of ripe French goat’s cheese and artichokes, or the dance of aspen branches in the wind, Clair Chilvers’s Out of the Darkness speaks directly to the senses. In these precise and evocative poems, Chilvers reckons with the past and negotiates our uncertain present, holding melancholy and joy in a delicate balance. Wide-ranging in their concerns, the poems handle the fantastical and the quotidian with equal deftness. This is a thoughtful and deeply felt collection of poems by a writer with a strong sense of art’s ability to capture those moments ‘that must be communicated.’ David Clarke
As readers, we sometimes underestimate the value of less showy poetry and many of the poems in Out of the Darkness speak quietly. That is not to say the reader won’t be surprised. The understated reserve of the poems sharpens the focus and gives greater impact to the unexpected kick. In one poem, for example, a description of sea, sky and shore turns to ‘The wedding dress I should have bought / a column of cold grey chiffon’, while in another a deceptively simple description of knitting succeeds in creating a person who is ‘cast off neatly’. Angela France
I’ve just put down my copy of your new book, for which very many thanks. I haven’t read anything so satisfying for ages. Your work has made terrific strides, and I’m hugely impressed – you may not have enjoyed lockdown but it has certainly brought forth fruit.
I particularly enjoyed the way you broke up the poems with the Pandemics – it gave you the opportunity to vary the subjects, with the movement of your biography delicately hinted at along the way; so that the darknesses are varied, and yet they belong. Many congratulations on a fine achievement: I hope it will get the praise it deserves.
Below are 5 poems from Out of the Darkness:
I was born, yet not born,
arrived on the doorstep on a dark night.
The angels put me down, blew a kiss,
and went off to do whatever angels do on Saturday night.
They found me in the morning of course
when they opened the kitchen door
to let the King in after his night out.
He hadn’t met the angels, different pubs I guess.
They didn’t know what to do with me
didn’t want to call the cops
in case they found the loot in the loft.
Decided to wait until they’d tidied up, moved it on.
That I could stay till then.
Of course that day never came.
It wouldn’t, would it?
Whatever was moved on was replaced.
So I grew up but I knew about the angels,
they came by once in a while
to check I was ok,
to check my wings hadn’t grown yet.
Brother Michael slips out after Lauds
white apron over thick brown habit
sings quietly as he crosses dewy grass
towards the wilderness
to a patch of wild garlic;
he takes a knife from his pocket, cuts a good bunch.
Just right, he says to himself.
The kitchen smells of fresh-baked loaves.
He crushes the garlic in a pestle,
with salt, black pepper,
works it into butter for the bread
while the soup heats through.
A perfect lunch for the Brothers.
The old Volkswagen turns through an open gate
into a grassy field.
In the shade a rug is spread,
ham, cheese and bread set out.
It is peaceful, drowsy, weather,
just right for an after-lunch siesta.
A battered deux-chevaux screams into the field
stops dead as if in outrage
at our trespassing.
A man in farmer’s overalls
slams the car door, opens the boot
gestures to us unsmiling
inside are tiny crottin cheeses,
we buy what we can,
with the few francs we have left.
From a white china bowl,
he fills my daughter’s hands
with wild strawberries.
I drive along the lane, not far from town,
to my house, where my lover will come,
one day, when he is ready.
The lane, unfamiliar,
I struggle a little to find the way
then come to houses
dark shadows set back.
In the middle of the road a badger
unmistakable in his grey striped coat
unhurried, crosses the lane,
pulls me up short from my reverie
of a future that hasn’t quite yet come.
Wet London pavements
reflect streetlamps at four o’clock.
The Solent lumpy,
leaden clouds brush the sea.
Yachts with reefed sails
hurry to Cowes, Southampton Water.
The shingle shore at Welcombe Mouth
pale pebbles marbled dirty white.
I pick one up for my collection.
The wedding dress I should have bought
a column of cold grey chiffon
more prescient than red velvet.
I fought for delivery slots
mastered Zoom calls
taught the television to livestream
fought depression every morning.
New routines – online shopping,
the virtual family get-together,
daily zigzag walk
hand-sanitiser in pocket, just in case.
Life a perfect bubble.
I fear proximity to people,
talking face to face,
negotiating shops and buses.
I look back at my bubble
hold it in my memory –
how I got to know my friends
shared recipes, boxed sets.
Today, I saw trees greening,
smelled the Queen Anne’s Lace.
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